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Fangirlling for the summer...

So yesterday the line up was announced for V Festival was announced yesterday night and it is AMAZING. Me and a friend had already been talking about going but this made it certain that we were going, I mean Beyonce, Kings Of Leon, Jessie J, Of Monsters and Men, Ellie Goulding, Calvin Harris... I mean it goes on and on and it is just such an amazing line up! There is still more to be announced and I am just praying that Lana Del Rey is going to be there as well, if she is the line up will be absolute perfection. So last night I spent a good 3 hours running around and fangirlling about this line up. I am praying that I will be able to get tickets on Friday! will actually die a little inside if I don't get them.

Also I might be going to Paris at some point this year and that will be amazing! This summer is looking like its going to be a good one!

I wish it was easier...

I wish I found it easier to talk to my parents about my sexuality, I came out to them over a year a go now and I haven't spoken to them about it once. It really gets me down sometimes, because I wish I had the confidence to sit with my mum and just say how I feel, but I have never had a relationship like that with my mum, even before I came out, but it feels recently that I am becoming closer to her.

I need to come out to my sister as well, but I can never pluck up the courage to tell her. I might just have to do it by text because then it will be so much easier to do. But I also think it might make me more confident to say something to my mum but, I don't know.

Hopefully I will do it soon.

Student Finance...

So as today is the first day that you are ale to apply for student finance I was planing on putting in my application, so that it was done and out of the way. So I make an account with direct gov, go to log in and then they tell me that my password is wrong, I try 3 times, knowing I have put my password in correctly and no, I get locked out of the site and now I cannot apply for my finance.

I rang the people up to say what has happened, because the website would not let me reset my password either, so they said they would send me an email through to reset my password, and it would take 5 to 10 minutes, I still don't have this email and I spoke to them about 3 hours ago. However, they did tell me to wait till tomorrow to see if it come through because it sometimes takes loner, so now I am worrying that I'm not going to be able to apply for my finance.

Hopefully it will all be alright.

Vlogs...

I enjoy making my videos, but I just never know I should make them about, I am thinking that I will do my next video about what I did in 2012, I know its basically February now, but I don't really care, I just think its something that I can do and it will let people see into my life, which is what vlogging is about I think. And to be quite honest 2012 was a great year for me. I did get up to quite a lot of stuff which will give me some things to talk about. Not sure when I will be making my video, it will be either today or tomorrow.

Also I had an idea of something that I could do for each video. Between each video that I make I will tech myself something, so for this video I have learnt how to do the cup song beat from pitch perfect, so I will be able to showcase something different in each video.

I'm awful in these situations...

Even though I have been through depression, self harm and being suicidal, when I am trying to help someone through it I never know what to say. It's the same with anorexia, I went through it, but I just don't have a clue what to say to other who are to make them feel better.

I guess it might be because I had no one to talk to about any of it so I didn't know what people would say to me, but I knew if they did it wouldn't make a difference, I would still hate myself and want to be thinner and not want to be alive.

I hope that one day I will know what to say, I guess mainly its comforting, listening and reassuring that people who are going through these things. But if anyone who is going through these issue and need someone to rant at or just talk to then I will be more than happy to try and help you as much as I can.

To get in contact with me go to my Tumblr page and leave me a message, I will not judge and I will help as much as I can.